Uncoupling

ONLetting Go

. I have been leaving this relationship for years now. I am usually such a perfectionist when it comes to order and changes in my life I don’t hesitate to often. I hate to waste my time. However I can’t even get this plane off the ground. I ask myself often “Is this what you truly want”?. “Yes”  I answer. “Then why cant you do this- “YES I CAN DAMN IT!”- Me talking to me. Then why is it so hard. I’m not worried about me. I am looking for an apartment. My kid is so ready to go on to her life in college and leave this madness behind, and who could blame her.

I guess I’m afraid of confrontation. I never used to be but this confrontation is like waking a sleeping bear from hibernation NOT a good idea. Or it could be a set up. Yeah a

set-up. Just  pretending to be a bully to scare you into submission. Scream, yell in your face. Complain about everything until you are so timid and submissive that you are afraid of your own shadow- or worse. You become a complier. To me the worst kind of submissive personality disorder. Not really I’m being facetious. and a bold face blatant complier. Anything for him to SHUT-UP. Just don’t nag me, or complain about me or the children or my family. Hell if its that bad and I’m such a poor example for a wife then Leave me- Please!